Hypothermic

As the graduation day of my batchmates come nearer and nearer, the countdown calendar in the bulletin board decreases in number of days, so does the graduation fever increases in heat and intensity... and I'm experiencing hypothermia...

Preparations are being made for new paths and new opportunities and I can't help but wonder how alone I will feel once they've all moved on to another level in our training. I will surely miss this batch but I also find crumbs of hope and things to rejoice for.

Some thoughts though...

In a famous surgical resident's story about how a mouse was transformed by a magician to a cat, then to a dog, and then to a tiger (animals higher in the food chain) and still the mouse still had a mentality or rather a mental capacity of a mouse, I couldn't help but wonder as to how much I have gained so far after 4 mos in Clinical Clerkship. This period of saying goodbye at the same time enables me to revisit the things I need to do and accomplish before I too can say goodbye.

Another thought to ponder by; "The grass is always greener in the other side..."
It seems that when it comes to relationships, the latest trend going on around me is that people are looking for something or someone to fill the lack or the void of an absence. It's nice to see the other perspective but I feel I like my grass the way it is now. In the words of a wise classmate; "May mga bagay na masarap kasi bawal." Even if most people say long distance relationships don't work, I still put my bet on us that it will.

Finally, this season of lent, the season for repentance and forgiveness in its ultimate form - I'd like to think of all the times I have practice neglect for the patient because they're too toxic and I've already been exhausted. And, also of all the times, I have to forgive people and situations that cause inconvenience and added stress. May these memories be stepping stones for the purification of my desire to become a doctor, (a doctor with compassion..)