In Love, In Life, In God

Today is June 17, 2007 and the Feast of Our Mother of Perpetual Help, thus the thanksgiving for the gift of love, life and faith.

In Love

After countless agonizing months followed by some more months of confusions and some amount of distress, I have come to a point of freedom in recognizing that I am indeed in love.

I met Regie in Medical School. He was a classmate and just so happened to be the “Kabarkada” of my ex-boyfriend from Davao. Little did I know that this unusual circumstance would become even more unusual as we started spending more time together. In the times we spent together, we found our we had a lot of things in common. Thus, in the succeeding months we became more bonded and eventually started to like each other.

Suddenly, one day we just found ourselves in love.

It was the fast series of events that agitated me although I was happy. I guess at that time I was a little confused about my true motives about coming into this relationship. Now, 7 months later, more and more everyday I get to know this person and find out that it’s not that easy and that we may have differences that I may have missed out before.

But I know, more than just these new realizations and discoveries are new opportunities for growth and for the will to truly love blossom forth. Love afterall is not all “feelings” I’d also have to chose the growth of my beloved into the best person he can be and by choosing that also choosing who he really is and accepting him for what he was, who he is and whatever he can be.

In Life

It is also timely that this is the week of my 22^nd Birthday. It is rightful that I give thanks for 22 years of life.

One of the gifts that I can give myself that will make this celebration truly meaningful is a new sense of inspiration. I ended my first year in Medicine with some frustration because of my inability to do well in my studies. However, I have also come to see that a passing grade is more of a blessing for medical students contrary to my perspective of it being a sign of mediocrity. This year, I have more things to be grateful for and therefore more things to inspire me to push on the toil not so much for the glory of the grades but for the miracle accompanying in the skills and the desire to serve.

In God

Medical studies and other distractions may have slowed me down in my prayer life. However, graces come in different forms. Recently I was informed that a friend of mine was running a site that contained prayer matter in the Ignatian format. I was also given a prayer book as an early birthday gift. This makes no excuse for allotting a few minutes of my day to the one who is the core of every thanksgiving.

Firmly, it is by His grace that all of these have unfolded in my life and thanksgiving is also a way of seeing His kingdom being built on earth. (MME)