Anxiety...



Davao City, November 4, 2006

this vacation was entirely for relaxation. i came from an eventful weekend in bacolod with med buddies and celebrating my grandfather's 80th birthday before flying to davao. now my relaxing vacation is finally over and i return to my usual world - medical school.

anxieties arise - i havent seen my grades yet and i hope i get at least a decent number. if not, ow well. perhaps the thing that makes me more anxioius is my inability to get back to my usual rhythm. i believe i don't study as much as i have to and i cant seem to bring myself to rise above the situation. perhaps i've gotten so used to seeing my home during the summer that i associate it with buming around.

so what do i do now in iloilo? i bum around..

i miss the atsca retreats and how it gives me a fresh start before another sem comes in... christmas carols are now on the air and i can imagine belarmine's lights with gesu on the background. i miss manila friends and studying in coffee houses.

in this new life, i have yet to find new opportunities of personal bliss. i am hopeful that this semester will be better... somehow... i need prayers....