After everything, when I finally manage words, I find myself without anything to write. I don’t even know whether these words will make sense even for myself. Here’s to trying…

Maybe, this will just serve as an official announcement to my close friends who know my love story. Yes, I fell for the guy, I don’t think it was mutual because HE NOW HAS A GIRLFRIEND. So to those friends of mine who are hoping and praying like me… I’d just like to share na masakit po at naguguluhan ako sa ngayon, pero what the hell, I have to go on….

In a span of a few weeks here are two important songs that have been consoling to me during sleepless nights. Now, once again for the nth time, love for me has ended before it had even begun…

I was shattered by the fall,
Got the wind knocked out of me.
To be standing here at all,
I must be invincible,
I thought that I would break,
But now I have come to see
something strong and beautiful inside of me
I must be invincible!

- Invincible, Christian Bautista

Softly, gently I will let you down
Cause I don’t love you
in the same way now.
I can hold you but not with lover’s arms
Cause you are more of a brother to me now

And I can lay next to you
But I can’t lie to you
So walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the rain
For you the future’s easy so don’t weep
For me it’s getting steep.

I loved you for exactly who you are
And I’d say you’ve come the nearest yet by far

And I can lay next to you
But I can’t lie to you
So walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the rain
For you the future’s easy so don’t weep
For me it’s getting steeper

When in the dark that’s where I want to be
Deeper, I’m going somewhere where you won’t want to see

So walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the rain
For you the future’s easy so don’t weep
Yes I will watch you, walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the raindrops
For you the future’s easy, so don’t weep
For me it’s getting steep.

- Steep, Lauren Christy